“REALITY hits you hard bro!”Quoted by George Lindell, 15 September 2011 (Viral Video Interview)
This is the quote that sums up my mood for this world, from tornadoes, the unpredictable climate tearing up our homes, the Coronavirus pandemic altering our lives, the fear of items being out of stock, followed by unemployment, loss of income, drop in stocks, cancelled events, travel, graduations, and the list goes on. As someone who prefers just enough items in stock to get by, I did my best to set aside some rules, and get enough items to stay put for at least 1 month. Everything I own must fit into my pantry without overflow, and I live in a small unit.
I have started writing and I’ve stopped many times. I wanted to write about COVID-19, but thought la-de-dah, hasn’t the world heard enough news. So I’ve written short texts, and I’ve even written letters, but some of what I’ve written hasn’t made it here on the blog. I can admit some of the creative energy has zapped away with my worry of the unknown. When you put an adult in timeout, sometimes the effects vary, and there have been days I’ve been low on energy.
I deeply appreciate the people who have subscribed to my blog, even if it was just one article that spoke to you. I am filled with gratitude. I’ve referred to my account as the “AFFIRMATIONS STATION” at times because I believe you should- 1st Acknowledge your Creator, 2nd Encourage yourself, 3rd Encourage others, and inspire others by living.
However, these couple of weeks, I’ve struggled to get out of bed. There was one point where my temperature climbed over 100 degrees and I wondered if my family would find me lying in bed lifeless, or even as I’m here in solitude, I wonder when “my time” will be. These are very odd thoughts that drifted to my mind. I think about them not allowing them to linger, knowing and repeating the affirmation I Am Strong Enough For The Task.
The point is, it’s important for me to be honest about the good and the ugly. To express that I’m human no matter how grand my life may gleam online. What gets me out the funk? Talking to my loved ones, I had a Zoom Meeting with family living in NY/NJ/WA. It was medicine to my soul to laugh till my sides hurt. What gets me out of bed? Counting my blessings, I have so many blessings, worthy of a book. The fact that I have a shelter, a warm-cozy bed, plenty food and cash flow (AMEN).
Made a delicious fruit/green smoothie with a side of Fluffy Kale, Spinach, 1 English Cucumber, Carrots and Lemon/Avocado Dressing to break the fast.
When I need energy, I recharge in the sun. Revealing my most natural state. Hair uncombed, legs unshaved, and minding my own business.
I’m smiling as I’m writing here today because I’m doing the very thing I’m meant to do, express myself in writing. There are days that I don’t want to answer a single call, but I do because I know we need each other, now more than ever and it’s important for me to connect, so you know, I’m here.
We will thrive & SURVIVE!!!
I’m a survivor (What?)
I’m not gon’ give up (What?)
I’m not gon’ stop (What?)
I’m gon’ work harder (What?)
I’m a survivor (What?)
I’m gonna make it (What?)
I will survive (What?)
Keep on survivin’ (What?)
🎤 – mic drop – 🎬end scene